I came across a picture of us from a year ago and it surprised me a little. I am so different now. For most of my life I have struggled with my self image. I have been on so many diets that worked in the short term, but I was never able to make lasting change. I was unhappy with my body, I was drinking too much and I was afraid to do anything about it. I had decided that I should accept me as I was, but it wasn’t positive acceptance, it was settling for less than what I wanted for myself. I wasn’t healthy and it was having a negative impact on me physically and emotionally.
Fear is powerful, and I allowed it to stop me. I was afraid of failing again. I new that my old habits and patterns were not working and that if I wanted to succeed, I would have to do things differently this time. I just didn’t know how. A stranger reached out to me and invited me to be a part of her group. A community of motivated and supportive women all working toward the same goal, to be the very best versions of themselves.
“Fear is not the enemy. Waiting to stop feeling afraid is.” This is a quote by Marie Forleo, author of Everything is Figuroutable, and she is so right! It took me awhile to say yes. What if I couldn’t do it? What if I wasted my money? What if I didn’t fit in? I was afraid, but finally I said yes.
I was accepted with open arms. I started with a program that has helped me to build a new relationship with food. As I cleaned up my nutrition, I found myself with more energy and I started working out. The fear didn’t just go away, but in time it has subsided and for the first time ever, I am seeing real lasting change.